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Wednesday, April 30, 2008, 12:58 PM
The other night I dreamt that my dear Ting was depressed over something and she committed suicide. Concerned, I chatted with her the next day to tell her about my weird dream, and asked her if everything's OK. She said that she's not enjoying work and that is still getting used to it. Also, she concluded that maybe we had a weird and rare telepathy, where it came to my dream as more dramatic. Oh, and she said that she passed by my place everyday to work. Prolly at that point of time when I was still sleeping and she was on her way to work, our thoughts met. What are the odds?"when I go away I'll miss you
and I will be thinking of you
every night and day just...
promise me you'll wait for me
cause I'll be saving all my love for you
and I will be home soon
promise me you'll wait for me
I need to know you feel the same way too
and I'll be home, I'll be home soon"
this random song never fails to put a smile on my face. I'm so glad it's Wednesday already. 6 more days!! and tomorrow is finally a day where I'm gonna wake up to my family at home, on a weekday; labour day. Sis wants to trim her eyebrows and Mum wants to explore Kallang Leisure Park for the first time, & I want to go Ikea tmr. How now brown cow? It's only a day of break and the want lists coming from the ladies in the house are overwhelming!
even sitting in front of the tv with chips won't get me where I want to be
and all the musics and books in the world aren't going to help either
I miss qamarul
in fact I miss qamarul like u wouldn't believe
Monday, April 28, 2008, 12:48 PM
promise me
In my unemployed, semi-delusional state, I had somehow anticipated that getting a job would be easy - that having someone pay me to do something I loved would be this simple five-minute endeavour that ended in my having a really swanky office, my parents boasting to their friends in the produce aisle about what a success I had become, and mountains of cash lining my bank account. The Real World (a.k.a "Life Outside of Campus") has been looming ominously overhead while I've studiously tried to avoid the fact that sooner-rather-than-later, the party will be over and it'll be time for me to get a job. To get a life.
Don't get me wrong: I'm not that aimless girl who has no clue what she wants in life. Make no mistake, I know exactly what I want: I want my life to get started already! I'm sick of sitting in a holding pattern waiting for things to happen to me - I want to make them happen myself. This much I know about myself: I love my family, friends and Qamarul. I can easily spend the whole day with them and think I've found the meaning of life. I know I should exercise, but I hate paying to go to a gym, and I'd rather be eating popcorn and pretzels while watching an overdue episodes of The Hills on sidereel. And last but certainly not least: I want a job.
I want a life that doesn't involve me asking my parents for money and a job that makes me feel like I'm actually doing something worthwhile. But more than anything else in the world: I want to be independent. And I want it to happen now.
What I'm scared of is becoming a disappointment. Of turning into one of those people my friends' parents talk about as "having had so much potential" and then just missing the boat. I'm scared that I will graduate, diploma or degree in hand, and do nothing worthwhile with it. I'm scared that my life won't make a difference in anyone else's - that I'll be one of those people whose existence doesn't change or help anything. What keeps me from sleeping at night, is the horrifying idea that I will never live up to the "potential" that everyone expects of me - and that I expect of myself.
Well, nothing helps misery like spreading it.
And I refuse to be a disappointment this early in the game. I'm not going to fail my "potential." Yet.
Saturday, April 26, 2008, 3:00 PM
One of my partner in crime back during secondary school.
The only food we bought at STC's Fun Fair (19th April 08). That, for $7 ya'll!
We had so much fun walking around the fugly school (now), taking pictures and indulging in reminiscence. Those days when I intensely dislike going to school for whatever reason. My one and only sweetheart, Cikgu Sew (haha!), no longer teaching at STC. Sadded. A handful of new faces (teachers), but I managed to bump into Mr Les.lie Fran.cis (to avoid the efficiency of googling) & by the look of it, he still hates me I guess. Hah! Cause I quit Track & Field (he was in-charge of it) and I skipped his classes lots of times. Like get over it already. Anyways, I've graduated so what do I care right? Hahaha.
We came from a school where we hear "move to the back of the bus girlsss, be considerate! Other people need to go to school or work too..." by the principal / vice principal every damn morning during assembly. Perhaps other schools should be taught the same thing too, cause you have to start from little right? And everyone will be happy when taking the public transports. =] naive..naive.
classrooms. & the place where we would hangout while waiting for the next class outside the classroom. :)
the new renovated office (I think I might have posted a photo of the new office before, but...).
Our founder, Father Barre, at the school's foyer :)
Her scalded hand (bandaged), yikes!
I seriously have no idea why the existence of the piano at the school's foyer. To be played (hymn if possible) while waiting for parents to fetch maybe? Hmmm.
A teacher just got dunked! @ the girls' favourite, and very own dunking tank :)
And how can we miss our favourite spot in STC. *wait for it.. wait for it..* the school canteen!!
The ancient looking school hall, still.
The view from outside Auditorium.
*** Till we meet again ***
Tuesday, April 22, 2008, 2:56 PM
Your Guardian Angel
Sister's Lime Flea Market last last Saturday (12th April). And I was their (sis & her boyfriend) guardian, one who guards all the properties under that green shelter. Heh. It was hot, and I had to tie up my hair like that, ended up looking like one nyonya. I didn't know OK! =]
yours truly has been sneezing and having blocked + runny nose since last night. prolly I'm too jaded cause I was up at 5 yester-morning, and went out to 3 different places the whole morning, day + night.
while was out last night, I had my blonde moments (was already half dead). I talked about the most random things, from topic to topic without even having a proper conclusion. maybe it's the hyperactive mind talking. you know when you are tired, instead of shutting yourself up, you talk non-stop instead? yeah, that kind of thing.
okay, it has been two weeks plus since he went to Taiwan and I miss miss miss him a whole loads. my body clock is haywire, only have myself to blame. I dread night time, yet I refuse to sleep early cause I figured that if I sleep late, I'll wake up later too which will shorten the day and lesser hours to worry.
An empty exhausted dryness. Whatever it is, it's way beyond tears.
Thursday, April 17, 2008, 1:15 PM
OK people, before anything else, I would like to give a shout-out to my dear friend, Shikin.Babe, you can throw away your phone already la. It took her super long to reply to a msg or even better, no reply at all!! We use smoke signal next time alright? :) Come on girl, at least get your fingers working! Haha.
Next, I totally have to put this up because it's extremely funny as hell.
Above are pictures of wisdom tooth and the X-ray of it. Yikes, they look evil alright. Never fails to give me the creeps. my gum/tooth was hurting yesterday, or more to the uncomfortable feeling cause I felt like as though it was swollen. At first I thought it was toothache, but realised that it's not aching at all! Than I said the 2 magic words "wisdom tooth", and my sis & mum started to agree and came to a conclusion that most prolly it is due to a wisdom tooth cause I'm turning 21! According to them, it's about time. Whhhhaaaatttt?!? hell I was scared, cause I never like anything that got to do with dental. And to think of it again, Noreen thought I was having a wisdom tooth yesterday but it turned out to be a sweet in my mouth. Prolly mulut dia masin banget. hahaha. but today I woke up feeling much better, the gum/tooth I mean. Thank God!
I'm torn between wanting to cry, and being unable to cry. I shall watch television. Maybe I could even try to read a book. Whatever.
yearning for the boyfriend.
Monday, April 14, 2008, 1:49 PM
like whoa
angah's 59th birthday! =] (08/04/08)
we ate mee siam goreng, tahu goreng, pizza, and of course the appetizing birthday cake. everything taste so good. i was expecting my grandaunt's laksa though, but it's alright. went to fetch my sister from work after that. she couldn't attend, cause she got night class. well, too bad..too sad.. haha!
ok, enough words. & more pics!
i swear, my grands are a loving couple though they don't portray it.
& of course, our dear Izzy, sleeping comfortably on the sofa while we were all busy eating and talking.
Life is good, I can't complain. I mean I could but no one's listening. Your image overwhelms my brain.
I was reading the other day and I came across this which I figured is somewhat true. "At the beginning of a relationship, which lets face it, is when everyone tries to be nice about everything." And I'm not even talking about my own relationship here, I'm talking general. duh. The boyfriend's been wonderful and I'm a happy girlfriend, though he is still far away.
Anyway, the last few pictures from my grandaunt's mini birthday celebration.
& again, the lazy Izzy. He shifted to my lap now.
Me and the grandaunt. We refused to take pictures with non-pink dresser that night, even the door behind has to be pink! :)
My mum had to cling to my grandaunt and not let go cause she seems fond of the limelight eventhough she's not in pink!
OK I shall stop drama mama-ing here.
lets see what's up this week.
syah's 24th birthday on friday!! STC's Food & Fun Fair this Sat!!
Wednesday, April 09, 2008, 12:32 PM
it's getting a little queasy with not having a job yet. seriously, it's hard not to feel the pressure when people around you are already working and having a mum at home who's breathing down my neck oh so frequently. it's getting irritable!i've been having enough sleep and rest lately, eventhough I go to bed pretty late every night which I come to hear that it is unhealthy. fairly obvious isn't it?
time has been flying rather fast these days. and that's good good good!
and I have to get busy accessing NYP website to indicate my attendance for Graduation Ceremony soon. whats with online ordering of graduation attire and bla bla bla. can't they just assume that we are attending the ceremony, just as how they will assume that we are not attending it if they do not hear from us by end of April? do I actually make any sense here? cause my point is reasonably simple, that is to skip all the hassles as it makes me have second thoughts about going. if I were to ask my mum, she definitely wants me to attend cause I simply have to experience all these great moments and to cherish it. speaking of which, I would love to cling fondly to my so called still youth life now and not having to stress myself with work, which my mum fails to understand and give in. isn't it the same concept? heee.
So, our 23rd month together last week, we did these
1) Went to the library to return and borrow some books at Bugis
2) Met Siti to get from her the Sean Kingston's tickets
3) Had a filling lunch at Marina Breeks
4) Walked over to Singapore Flyer and took a flight without much consideration
5) Went over to Central @ Clarke Quay to have desserts
6) & a long ride back home
My Iced Passion Fruit Tea is yummy too, but we were too hungry to bother about snapping it.
while snapping the first picture, he was already perspiring.
going up, up and away!
pledge: we are the afraid of height couple.
our flyer-mate. oh, and that's my bag. hohoho
I actually like the 3rd pic! thanks b, you do have skill afterall :)
the view was thrillingly beautiful.
& thanks mate, for taking the pic for us :)
oh oh oh, spot me house! it's somewhere in the red circle. =]
oooooh, pretty pretty!
Baby cupcakes.
Focus on the flowers. I loooovvvveeee it. Beats roses, lilies and sunflowers anytime.
And my special thanks to this dude for making the day possible.
The past few days haven't been easy. "... You get used to it, but you never get over it."
This sounds about right to me. I love you.